I saw a pink cloud today. As the sun was setting I noticed it off to the north. Hidden behind some trees so I went to get a better look.
For some reason this pretty pink cloud caught my attention.
It’s not like I haven’t seen pink clouds before.
I’ve seen a lifetime of pink clouds.
I’ve experienced them as well.
The first time I heard the phrase pink cloud was not in reference to a sunset. It was in my first year of sobriety.
A pink cloud in early recovery is a period of time when you feel euphoric, alive, happy, excited, and hopeful. The alcohol out of your system, you begin to feel for the first time. Truly experience life without the numbness, without the haze, without the physical pain and emptiness.
Like a new day dawning…
A time of waking up to all the amazing possibilities of life.
I remember my first pink cloud well. I also remember wondering why people told me to be careful.
Early sobriety is a time of great highs and lows. A roller coaster ride. The pink cloud is often thought to be dangerous for the newly recovered. It can lead to an extreme low when shame and guilt come knocking. And an unrealistic view of life that can often lead to relapse.
I was fortunate.
I survived my pink cloud..and stayed sober.
Today, over two decades later, a pink cloud came into my life again.
And I stared at it for a long time…
I think pink clouds in later sobriety…aren’t so dangerous any more.
They wake us up to all the amazing possibilities of life.