I’ve learned a lot this past year. I’ve learned that things break. Like dreams and hopes and hearts.
Here’s the thing…
Things do break, but they come back together. Rearranged and combined in new and beautiful ways.
Like a mosaic. The pieces are what make the masterpiece. And each piece has it’s place. Each piece part of the rich tapestry that is me, that is you. That is all of us.
I am grateful for the breaking so that I could put my pieces back together. My mosaic heart. Stronger than before. Stronger because of it. Stronger because what holds it together now, is faith and grace and love.
Works of art don’t just happen. It is through the breaking and the healing and the putting back together…
Until the pieces all fit…and a mosaic masterpiece is born.
When everything is brand new and fresh.
I just spent 5 days in Chicago. I was there for the National Science Teacher’s annual conference.
And while I enjoyed every minute of my stay there. And immersed myself in professional learning as well as the landscape of the city. I was happy to return home. I am and probably always will be, a country girl.
Chicago is an amazing city. I was awestruck at the skyline, the parks…
and of course the lake.
The sunrises are something to behold. And it truly does appear to be an ocean. A horizon that goes on forever.
There are things I experienced and felt during my visit. Things I will never forget.
I left there feeling inspired. So many incredible things happening in my profession.
I left there feeling an awareness and openness. No matter the size of our community we are all human beings.
And I left there with a deeper appreciation for people who live in a city…and for people like me. Country people.
No matter where we live or what we do. Deep inside us we are all the same. Our hearts, our souls and our spirits. We are all living and loving. Learning and growing. Life in the city or life in the country.
My heart leapt as I landed in Chicago. Excited for what lay ahead. And my heart did the same as I flew back over my familiar mountains and wide open spaces.
This country girl is home.
In AA, as we work Step 4, we look deeply at ourselves to illuminate those things that we need to change or work on. I’ve also heard this called “shadow boxing”. Because it is the darker parts of our hearts and souls where these things reside. In the shadows…
This process is important. For many reasons. It is shining a light on our darkest parts so that we can see them more clearly and so that we can begin to grow in new ways and new directions. Because once those shadows are in the light they have less power over us.
It is said that in the midst of great loss, failure, and struggle we move from unconsciousness to a deeper awareness and consciousness. We feel an inner freedom. We find grace. And we see rightly. From darkness to lightness. A spiritual awakening.
Our souls grow best in the shadowlands.
In the light, there will still be shadows. But now they can reflect truth and radiate compassion for others who also have shadows. They allow us to love and be loved. They are what make us human and ever evolving works in progress.
Shadow boxing…another gift of sobriety.